Not every month was bad. Sometimes I was totally fine. And after almost 16 years of this monthly occurrence (yeah, do the math, don't you feel bad for me?) I feel like I had all PMS symptoms fairly under control. I'm sure Hod would admit some months weren't the best, but comparatively, I thought I did well.
I'm sad to say, I want the PMS back.
Oh, did I mention that I shouldn't have PMS for another 33 weeks? That's because my family is growing! Hod and I are very excited.
However, through this, I really would like the PMS back. And let me tell you why. When I realized I was being ornery and dumb, I knew it was going to be over in a few days. This hormonal orneryness is going to go on for quite a while. Don't get me wrong, after the last pregnancy that ended in heartbreak and surgery, I am SO glad to be going through this. That is why I have been able to smile while I am throwing up. This is such a blessing. But some days I just plain can't control the ornery! And it's over the dumbest things! For example, Hod called me tonight to tell me he was off of work. I like to talk to him, and I like to know when he leaves so I can know when he should be home so I can start worrying. We are currently not living in the same house (but only for 3 more days!!!!!!!!) but I still like him to call me. I am living with my parents, and they live in a black hole of really bad cell phone service. So, Hod calls me, and I can't hear him. I hang up, and grab my parent's home phone. It has free long distance, and then I don't have to worry about losing contact with my dear hubby. Before I could start dialing, Hod called me back on my cell.
There is nothing wrong with that. I mean, really, Hod was trying to talk to me, because he knows that I miss him. And yet, the anger that welled up inside of me because he hadn't waited for me to call him on the land line (which I hadn't told him I was going to do) is completely crazy. The good news is, I calmed down quickly. But why am I angry? Because of all of the STUPID (and by stupid I mean hard for me to handle, and yet SO great because that means I am making a baby, and if you listen to the old wives tales it means Jr is healthy) hormones raging through my body.
All I know, is after November, Hod should get some sort of reward for dealing with me. I hope I get this under control. Seriously, friends. It's bad enough that I tick myself off when I get mad. That's just asking for a never ending cycle of annoyance. So, thanks Hod, for dealing with the crazy that is your wife. Hopefully the normal Paily will come back in about 7 more months.